First Day of Treatment

Temp: 99.2
Resp: normal (15-20 breathespm)
Heartrate: 40 bpm
Gut sounds: normal in all 4 areas
CRT: 2 sec
So last night was the first day of treatments.  As Matt so elequently put it on Facebook, it looks like a methlab kit lol.  So much to give him, however he seemed grateful for it, as if he understood what all this will do for him...we'll see if that changes, I'm sure he'll get sick of all the concoctions in his food.
So he's getting Marquis, dosage for 1200lbs, he's getting 10cc of Banamine IV for the first 6 days (which I am terrible at giving IV to my own horse, anybody else's horse, no problem, but for some reason I get sooooooooooo nervous with Stryker, poor guy put up with me having to stick him twice last night.  I think I'm going to have to have someone else around when I do it tonight or maybe just have them do it.  I dunno, but its not fair to him for me to be so ridiculous about it, I literally shake, such a weirdo, I've done this over a hundred times probably.), 15 SMZs 2x day for 10days (we started those again on Saturday night, & I totally forgot to give him his SMZs last night because I was going over all the new stuff, bad mom), I splurged for the good stuff for probiotics & immune booster, he's getting KLPP 30ml 1x day & Transfer Factor 2T (which who uses Tablespoons for measurements?  All my scoops are for grams, mg, or oz, thank God for converters on the smartphones) 2xday, I'm also giving him MSM to help out with keeping his body in balance during all this, I've taken him off of his regular supplements, I just don't want anything interfering & I'm sure he'll be okay with 3 less powders in his grain, oh & he's also on Red Gamma (Springtime Inc product, its basically rice bran oil to help with his muscling & coat, kind of like Red Cell-ish).  I splurged on the KLPP & TF b/c hell I'm already investing $800 for Marquis I may as well make sure he has everything he needs to have the best shot at this.  I've also decided to move him out of his current stall down to the newer barn with a bigger stall (no more boards being kicked out as well).  The barn he is in now is an old dairy barn, so the stalls are kind of ramped up & we almost had an accident last night coming out of the stall, so just while he's going through this I want to keep him in as low risk situations as possible, level terrain is our friend.  Also going to remove his shoes, he's always been the least graceful animal when it comes to walking on concrete or pavement while he has shoes on (we ice skate) so those for sure need to come off too lol, I wonder if this will fix that since he will hopefully be more aware of his back end.
For his meds he gets 2xday I'm getting up early to give him his AM meds myself before I go to work.  I may be being a control freak here, but I've spent too much money at this point for him to not get his meds properly.  Its not that I don't want to trust the new facility but I just had experience in the past where I have things labeled, spelled out, "idiot proof" for lack of a better term, & he still would get fed properly.  (ie AM & PM meds set up for 30 days & I'd check about 10 days in & have 25AM still & 15PM...sad, I know).  So I just need to know he's getting all my money already spent lol. 
He's been having "drunken sailor" moments I'm noticing, shit this moves fast.  I don't know if I'm just more sensitive to it now, but not even on Wednesday or prior to, did I ever notice things like this.  Yesterday morning when I went to give him his AM meds out in the pasture I was fixing his fly sheet (it likes to rotate to the left) & while readjusting, not tugging, it was like his back end just gave out & he stumbled for a few seconds, then just went back to grazing.  But he can stand there & stomp at flies with no issues.  Also in the wash rack when we have to turn around, he gets a little tangled up if we turn to right, so he's not an ambiturner right now (note Zoolander reference).  I'm scared to death of my horse right now, I'm trying to stay calm & not get anxious around him, but I feel like I'm going to be too cautious or oblivious to something.  I'm scared I'm just going to have him on the cross ties grooming him & he's going to collapse out from under me b/c I apply too much pressure in the wrong place.  I'm scared to pick his feet right now.  Blah I'm sure this will past, he's just the horse love of my life & I know all he wants is to be better, & I want to do right by him & keep him happy, healthy & comfortable.  If he could cry right now I know he would, he has this thing that when I come out he puts his head into my chest as if to just be like "just hold me mom".  Even when out in the pasture, he just has to be at least 5 feet from me if I'm out there.  He is gonna be the only horse I truly love for a long time, it hurts too much to see him suffer.
Okay this is getting long, but I have to just say, having a supportive husband through all of this is the greatest blessing I could ever ask for.  Nick is my rock, even though he knew what he was getting into dating & then marrying a horse girl, nothing could prepare him for this journey we've been on.  Stryker wouldn't even be here right now if it weren't for him.  He is so understanding, not only is this hurting our finances right now when we close on a house in 2 weeks, but so understanding of the time this is going to take & the time it takes me away from him.  How right now while I may be home with him, I'm not mentally all there right now.  He is too good to me, I couldn't have asked for a better man in my life.  I love him so much & I hope I truly make him feel loved & appreciated for all he does.